The Emptiness Within And Enduring Triviality

There are some of us that feel an emptiness inside at times, and we search for some meaning or purpose, to life and what surrounds us. We want to know why certain things are so, or why isn’t life fairer. I know it sounds a bit heavy, but some people have jobs to go to, or family to look after, and they don’t think about the meaning of life because they are distracted or have no time. Do we even really need to think about it, or just live it? For some it’s not important and they carry on and seek a balance of pleasure, with paying the bills; that’s life for a huge sector of society, but not for all. Yes, it maybe easier not to think about it, but that doesn’t mean that the questions will stop being asked.

While we may question the purpose of our existence, I don’t rely on God for an explanation, but look at what I wish to achieve in this incarnation. It may sound a little strange not to ask God or a Guide for an answer, but they are not supposed to give us answers, because we need to figure out that part ourselves. We don’t need things to be explained, for if we did, what lessons have we learned? I reflect upon my own incarnation thus far, and I look at the emptiness within. Others may say we should look for gratitude, and look at what we were gifted with, yet I am skeptical of this notion. Are they things that the physical realm considers gifts?

Some may say they are gifted with good health, but that is actually predetermined to an extent, and controllable on the physical plane. Souls maybe born with a disability for a reason, to help them or those around them to learn lessons. Then people can take responsibility to take care of their health, or those who are in good health may have genes that counteract that. What about those born with good looks or financial stability? Again, these are predetermined before an incarnation, so are they gifts when they were already planned? Maybe some spiritual folks will say the love of their family is a gift, but can you measure love, and can you control those around you to love you without manipulation or unconditionally? Love like trust and respect and earned and cannot be bought with actions or material objects. People try, but and it may work for a short period of time, but it’s a case of quid pro quo rather than a conscious action in most cases.

I asked myself the question, “What have I been gifted with?” and to be honest I struggled with a rational answer. In the end it has nothing to do with anything my parents have provided, or anything I have actually done. My gifts are my Soul, my brain, and my morals and ethics. None of these are things that can be bought or transferred, and are what I arrived on this earth with. I value these things more so as I see society crumbling and people around me saying and doing meaningless things, and focusing on petty matters. To them it obviously isn’t meaningless right now, but once they have transitioned they will see how trivial it all was, yet my morals, and ethics will remain with my Soul eternally.

Trivial matters govern the lives of mainly younger souls, the retired, the bored housewife, and the rich whose lives revolve around shopping, eating out and taking vacations. They pick at small matters that only concern them and in fact do no harm, and it’s this wasted energy in the Universe that is defining society and how it functions. Having to deal with these tiring Souls who are petty can be hard work mentally. In the physical realm I wasn’t gifted with much, but had the basics. Most people (including my immediate family) are young souls, and perhaps my role is to help them to learn, because I have been the anchor for all of them since I was a toddler. The spiritual side of me wants to see this as fulfilling, but if I am being honest it’s tiring, mainly unappreciated, and frustrating. It’s a little like an employee who don’t like their bosses but who are stuck with them and put up with it. I’m also going to be honest in that I don’t actually like any of my family, yet I tolerate them and feel responsible for them. There are moments that I stop and let them fall, but then I have to pick up the pieces and so I create more work for myself. That is my emptiness within—that what I do for others, they will not understand or see it.

Being an Old or Ancient Soul is lonely because no one can truly see what really matters, and why I do prefer to be alone to find some solace and balance in knowing what I do is for the bigger picture. An Ancient Soul sees darkness, although they are not attracted to it, at times it can balance things and ground them so they see the reality of what is really around them. In other words, it puts things into perspective, that what many people (not Souls) focus on is meaningless in the long term, and what they don’t focus on could be meaningful in the long term.

For example, people focus on what they look like and while looking clean and tidy is necessary, I’m talking about plastic surgery and the bikini body obsessions that let’s face it when you are dead and buried really isn’t going to matter. Even in a subsequent incarnation it won’t matter because you will have a different body and appearance. Maybe they focus on say being frugal? One hears of people dying and leaving millions while they made do with their living standards or ate frugally. Again, what is the point, while one doesn’t encourage extravagance, what is the point of eating cheap unhealthy food and leaving money to the taxman and to charity? It’s a choice, but is it wise one? Learning to be frugal is necessary for some people, but it does boil down to being controlled by the material and allowing it to define your choices.

Ironically, what people choose not to focus on because they don’t see any immediate benefit is what could help them to grow. An example is learning to be humble; now often there is a choice to be humble, ignorant, or arrogant in a given situation. Many will subconsciously pick the most advantageous option, which may not always be the best in the long term. People don’t usually stop to think about the long-term implications, but a Soul that has awakened can see the relevance.

There is always the easy option, the right thing to do, or the option that provides benefits. At times that can mean missing out on physical realm things, or having those around you criticizing or shunning you. Some won’t understand, because they feel their choice is better. Even if you try to explain it to them, they won’t always listen, but remember, you don’t have to justify your own actions. For many, they cannot see the bigger picture right now, but when they transition they will be reminded of the options they had, and the real reasons for their choice. One thing I will tell you is that choosing to do the right and moral thing is something that will remain with the Soul eternally, but to get to that stage some errors will be made, for that is how one learns.

I hope you can see that much of what society focuses on isn’t conducive to Soul Growth, or that less emphasis is put upon things that actually do matter. I see so much pettiness around me when it really doesn’t matter—if it doesn’t harm or affect another, then it shouldn’t matter. It’s hard to ignore and endure at times when it’s repetitive. Maybe it’s about control? However control is about ego when it concerns others. As for my own immediate family, they are uninspiring young souls that all seek control of others. I let them think that for an easier time, but every now and then I put the brakes on and it shocks them. I will endure my mother’s pettiness as I have done my entire life (there was a spell of not seeing or speaking for a decade or so for my own sanity), tolerate my father’s frugal nature despite the fact he knows he can’t take his money with him and in the space of two years he has nearly died in hospital, and my brother’s arrogance in that he blames someone or something else for anything that goes wrong. I accept this, but I don’t find it useful to me, but I cannot change the vision of those who are blind to what they need to learn and focus on.

I try to think what do I gain from this spiritually—okay, my tolerance and patience levels have been tested to the limit, and I can see that some Souls simply cannot learn even with the best Guides and Mentors around them. I have learned that the Soul must want to learn before they can be taught, and be ready. I have little more to learn from them, yet they have more to learn from me and it’s hard work. I question if I must stay to guide those who cannot see what they need to in order to grow. It’s not looking as if it’s a great deal for me; however, the contracts will end when one side will transition (it’s either me or them).

A teacher gains fulfillment from the success of their students, or that they have been able to help. When that doesn’t happen, it can seem like a failure, but can a teacher be responsible for a student that doesn’t wish to learn? That is my emptiness within, and my struggle to maintain my morals, ethics, and integrity in a realm where many cannot see the long-term benefits. For many they want to know, “What’s in it for me?” or they aren’t interested. This is why Old and Ancient Souls prefer not to reincarnate; for them the emptiness and loneliness can feel like failure. Trying to see a lack of success not as a failure isn’t easy, and that is another lesson I am learning—that my existence is also for others, and while I must endure and tolerate a lonely emptiness within, that is one of my Soul Purposes. I will openly admit I yearn for more inspiring Souls around me, and that financial stability would make a small difference, yet I also know my time here is transient and it won’t matter soon. An incarnation can be an endurance test for Ancient Souls, and so I will indulge in some familiar old texts that help fill the emptiness.

Why Being An Old Soul Isn’t That Exciting

People are always fascinated with the phrase an Old Soul, but what does it really mean? One assumes that an Old Soul is wise, and is one that has lived through many incarnations and experiences. Yet, there are Old Souls (in the early steps) that are still learning, mainly through guiding and experiencing alternate perspectives. Most people like to think they are Old Souls when they aren’t because of the perceived image; some admit they are Young Souls and are content with that. That is a sign of an evolving Young Soul—one who can recognize they have a long way to go, and who will take their time. A true Old Soul is a great listener and speaks only to offer advice, never to dictate. Some are wise, others have more patience, most have the ability to communicate without dictating, and nearly all are reserved and keep their own private thoughts. That doesn’t mean they are necessarily introverted, but they keep their own counsel, and here, I share some of my own personal experiences only because I feel it may aid others.

An Old Soul will have experience and observed many events in their incarnations, and those of their Soul Group. In some ways they can seem blasé about things, not because they don’t care, but they know these painful lessons (for example, losing a member of the family in a tragic death, or being betrayed by a lover) will happen to all, and are a natural part of humanity. By knowing these things will occur, makes them appear less sympathetic in the eyes of others, when really it’s something they have witnessed countless times and they know why it needs to happen. Some maybe accused of being heartless or ruthless, whereas all they are doing is observing a repetition of events, and maintaining a clear and focused mind on how to deal with the situation.

I find an Old Soul, regardless of physical age, always seems to be moral and to do the right thing, because they know and understand the consequences of lying and Karma. I recall as a child I would always tell the truth, even if it meant the whole class getting punished. All I knew instinctively was to do what was right. Needless to say I ended up with very few friends at school as a result, and children couldn’t understand my need to do the right thing all of the time. I was always the one making black coffee for everyone as a teenager at a party to sober everyone up. Even in adulthood it has left me with conflicts among my peers, but an Old Soul cannot go against what they know deep down. The idea is to not to accumulate any more adverse Karma, but also to lead by example. Sometimes they can be the goody two shoes—the one that won’t follow a dare or an adolescent prank. They know better, but sometimes they concede, knowing the potential outcome, if only to be accepted by their peers. Childhood can be lonely without friends, and Old Soul children tend to be bullied or loners.

It can be a lonely existence as an Old Soul, but do not confuse them being unsociable with a need for space and solitude. What an Old Soul prefers is good company rather than company for the sake of it. I would rather be at home watching television than be at a party full of faux people, but a party with like-minded folks is a different matter. Old Souls aren’t always the loners they are made out to be—how would they guide or mentor others without any interactions? Instead they choose their company and environment wisely, and if it doesn’t suit, then they will move on.

In regards to work, being an employee can be hard for an Old Soul, not because they are better, but they can get frustrated more easily. Not all Old Souls have unlimited patience, which is why many do freelance, work for themselves, or make do and live on a small income. They know material things don’t matter (but they can make life more comfortable), and are willing to sacrifice material gains for freedom. One may say money does buy freedom, but only within limits. In my experiences as an employee, I have had to compromise my standards, integrity, and beliefs so as not to get fired. Eventually, an Old Soul will yearn to be free of these binds, although some fortunate ones find jobs that do give them this freedom or find a partner that enables a degree of freedom.

Being right all of the time can be burden. People tend to despise those who are cleverer than others, especially if they are employees. Many Old Souls must play down their roles and knowledge, a little like Clark Kent in Superman. Yet, a wise Old Soul knows when to say just enough, and to stay back, because others need to learn in their own way. It’s another lesson for the Old Soul to realize not everyone can see things as rationally or as logically as they can yet. That’s another reason why they prefer to be alone—if they cannot express themselves openly it’s best to be alone. It’s not a fear of not wishing to discuss their beliefs, but an Old Soul likes to use their time and knowledge wisely, and when it falls on deaf ears, that energy is best saved for another time and place. Many do become frustrated when others don’t listen to them (and they were right), and the Old Soul must choose whether to remain silent, or to persist. Personally, I only persist if there is danger, as in someone will be injured or harmed, otherwise I have learned silence (while hard) can be the better option than to be blamed, endure abuse, or to deal with arguments. I argue when I know I will win, however, human nature entails many despise losing or being proven wrong, and it causes rifts in relations. An important lesson is knowing how to maintain relations and to control them. Sometimes it’s wiser to let the other party figure discover things out by themselves and to just observe.

Old Souls do get disaffected, when they see Young Souls enjoying themselves because they find it harder to be less serious about life. They recall their past lives more readily, and have incarnated for specific purposes, and keep that in mind. That is not to say they cannot behave in a less serious manner, but they are more aware of the Soul Goals they need to complete, and many don’t wish to incarnate again to complete unfinished goals. As an Old Soul chooses to incarnate less frequently, it’s not a matter of time, but that they find more can be achieved in the Spiritual Realm. Many also don’t enjoy incarnations as much, because they are more aware of the pains of humanity they return to. On the physical plane their powers are more limited, and some feel more helpless, which is why when they do have an incarnation they are serious about their achievements. They can of course put their goals on hold and enjoy their incarnation, but eventually there will be a concentrated period where the goals to be fulfilled will arise.

An Old Soul incarnation in the latter stages can be a solitary one because of their serious goals; it maybe to guide and mentor certain Souls, and therefore those Souls are relying on them. It is a responsibility, much like a class of students who are relying on their teacher to help them pass all their exams. Sometimes an Old Soul cannot help themselves and they may seem boring, sensible, and predictable, but that’s because they have been through it all before and have already paid the price (Karma and learned those lessons) for impractical acts. Old Souls are still creative in their own way by using the knowledge they have amassed, but being an Old Soul means that they do know better. Even so, occasionally they go out on a limb and take a chance and see what Fate decides to dish out—they do let their hair down every now and then, but it comes at a cost. They usually know what that cost is beforehand and will anticipate and accept those consequences. That’s why many choose to play safe; an incarnation with less pain and grief is what most Old Souls prefer and choose to follow.

So why does an Old Soul choose to incarnate? They don’t have to, but many do so to assist other Soul Group members, and to mentor and guide evolving Souls. Once they are on the physical realm, they maybe called upon to assist others. That’s why many Old Souls are nomadic without any roots or attachments, as it is an incarnation of duty—to help out whenever there is a call. Naturally they have the free will to choose to walk away, and some do, not through inability, but many seek to assist those who will truly benefit from their time and support. An Old Soul is practical and likes to make the best use of their time—it can seem boring and unexciting, but they can see the bigger picture, always.

©2016. S.T. Alvyn. All Rights Reserved.

The Eternal Spirit Library: The Akashic Records

The Akashic Records is where the thoughts, previous incarnations, Soul Connections, and experiences of each Soul are recorded. If the Soul remembers everything, one may ask why does there need to be a library where everything is stored? While the Soul does remember everything, the Soul can also get damaged (where fragments may get lost or damaged), and having access to the records can help heal the fragment. In addition, all Souls when they reincarnate, temporarily forget their previous lives, in order to learn and achieve goals without prejudice, bias or without any recollections of any trauma that they may have encountered previously. Having a library to access allows assistance should the Soul require it. Young Souls in particular may have difficulty in recalling their past lives, or be able to interpret them correctly; therefore having a record of the Soul can help them on their path if they need healing or experience blockages.

The records can be accessed in a number of ways:

  • The Higher Self will show the Soul the answers to what has been asked if there is a connection.
  • A Sensitive can access the records with the Soul’s permission.
  • A Guide may access them, and send relevant information to the Soul.

The word library is used as a generic term, as the Akashic Records surround us—it is not a huge library or hall with books. The records are not books, but each Soul has a white stone tablet where all the information is stored, inscribed on an infinite tablet. It’s not written in a language that can be translated by those on the physical plane, but instead images (like a video clip) will be shown in response to what information is requested. One must be specific when asking a question, so that the correct information can be shown. I have seen the Akashic Records, and have also accessed them, which are two very different things. Accessing them can occur in a number of ways, often when you dream, or when the frequencies are open and you are communicating with a Guide or the Higher Self. The records are located on a plane in the Spirit Realm, and can be accessed in conjunction with the Higher Self and Guides. Each Soul may access the records if they need to, but only information that is necessary will be shown. Not all Souls have access to the higher frequencies; therefore, they can be accessed through their own Guides or Sensitives.

Such important information is securely guarded, and there are gatekeepers—those to whom you must state your intent to before access is granted. The Higher Self has natural access—therefore, if there is a strong link to the Higher Self, access will be granted. Remember, the Higher Self already has this knowledge (and will show things from their perspective), but sometimes a Soul must see things from another source to fully understand the message conveyed. However, the Higher Self will still control what information will be shown—there must be a valid reason for wishing to know something; for example, there maybe a blockage, or a phobia that needs to be addressed. Access is not granted for those who are merely curious. For those who do not have a strong link to the Higher Self, or are unsure of what they need to ask, they may use an intermediary—a Sensitive. Not all Sensitives can access the Akashic Records, but those who can, maybe better equipped to interpret the information that is shown. The Soul must grant the Sensitive permission to access the records, and may also guide the Soul from the information shown. No one may access the records of another Soul without the Soul giving permission.

I’ve had my records read by a Sensitive and I’ve accessed them myself. It’s always a good reconfirmation when someone interprets the messages and visions similarly. Interpretations will never be the exactly the same with different readers, but how they convey the information also makes a difference. Information is given to guide the Soul and sometimes it can enable closure on issues. It can help explain why there are difficult Soul Connections, or if some adverse Karma is in play why it occurred. Often when a Soul has this knowledge, they are more accepting of what happens, knowing that Karma is being repaid, or that a Soul Contract has been fulfilled.

Accessing the Akashic Records isn’t essential for everyone, as Guides and the Higher Self will automatically access the parts that are necessary. One may delve deeper, but information is only shown when it is in the best interests of the Soul Path. Many people have trouble accessing the records, or don’t realize that they have accessed them. The Akashic Records will only show flashes of information, clues or images to trigger the Soul memories. It does not give definitive yes or no answers, nor does it tell you what you must do, but will advise and give signs for the path ahead. This is a library with limited access, because sometimes you will not get shown the answer to a question—that may mean it is not for you to know, or not right now at least.

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Does Déjà Vu Exist?

What is a déjà vu? Why doesn’t everyone have one and why do we have them? It can be a feeling of having experienced an event before, saying or hearing the same phrase, or being in a familiar place. Not all can be attributed to past lives as people expect, though many can be and these triggers can spark past life memories. Perhaps it’s a repetition of events over several incarnations as it’s something that has not been resolved?

We do plan our incarnations, but with all plans, not everything will go smoothly or on time. A déjà vu can be a recall of the planning of an event for a specific reason; a signpost in your current incarnation, where it reminds you that an event or person is important for some reason.

Not everyone will have a déjà vu; Young Souls who have few past lives don’t have that many memories and will also have an abundance of guides to help them. The Mature and Old Souls may have more recollections and experiences, so may experience more instances of déjà vu, particularly if they have karmic debt to repay. Old Souls may also have more of the latter experiences, as they tend to have fewer guides and prefer to place markers for themselves in an incarnation as a reminder of their goals.

Some visions can be helpful and other experiences may seem confusing. Recognize them as messages that were at the back of your mind, but don’t be afraid of them; use them wisely as it’s your Higher Self connecting with you, sending you a reminder of what you planned and decided before incarnating.

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